Define My Life

You may think I'm a fool because I choose to focus on the positive and that's okay.
But, I will not apologize for it.

So much of my life I have done the opposite. I have been a cranky, negative, sarcastic person inside while simultaneously trying to please everyone. It's almost impossible not to hate yourself when you are so contradictory. But I digress.

The fact is it takes a lot of thought to stay on the positive side of things. Yes, there are moments when motherhood throws up in my face. Marriage can be a very hard thing at times. And, I want to run away and/or drink a bottle of wine while lounging in the tub. But...those are not the moments I want to remember. They are not the moments that define my life. 

Someday when I am old and grey I will probably lose my memory. Heck, I am losing it a bit already. This blog might be the only source of memories for me. The question is, what do I want to fill it with? What do I want to look back on? I'll tell you one ain't the dog throwing up on my bed at 5 am. In fact, I'd like to forget that now. And, beyond all that, I want to be this person. The person that is a bright spot in some else's day despite the stuff going on in mine.

Love, JulieBug: Be a Bright Spot


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